Thank God Chinese New Year is over

Yesterday marked the last day of the fifteen days of Chinese New Year celebration. I'm glad it's over, but it has been quite a good one, compared to the last five years.

Chinese New Year had always been the festival I dreaded the most because I had to take my son for visiting. He could never sit still and forever exploring and touching things around the house of relatives and friends. I had to constantly keep a lookout on him, fearing that he might break anything or get into any kind of trouble. When he had enough of exploring and got bored, he would throw tantrum and want to leave. It was a hard time trying to control him and making sure that no one would look from the corners of their eyes , shake their heads and think to themselves," What a spoilt and no discipline child !"

I could still remember how he pulled down the entire curtain in the living room of my brother's house! And my brother is the kind of impatient man who cannot stand any kind of mischief especially when he is in a bad mood.

This year Son is behaving better, of course it's also because we bought a laptop which he could bring along to play. Computer is the best thing that can make him sit for the whole day. He is also able to join in the fun of playing blackjack with his cousins.

I guess he has improved a lot when it comes to mingling with others, even though he still needs to be prompted when it comes to social and communication skills. I have to be happy over every little of his improvement, He needs to learn at his own pace. There is no use rushing and pushing him, I' ll be the one ending up going crazy and he will never be happy too. He is special and he is very special to me. All I want is him to be happy.

I Don't Love You

My son is a six year old kid who cannot express himself well. Last Friday he was suppose to have a new year celebration in school. It was my mistake to choose a shirt that he does not like. I thought he might change his opinion this time. Boy was i wrong! He started throwing tantrum and would not even wear any shirt when i asked him to choose another one. See how stubborn he can be?! The school bus was almost here and he refused to tell me if he wanted to go to school. I was so angry that I beat him up. I knew I should not have vented my anger on him but the bomb in my head just exploded uncontrollably.
"I don't love you!" he cried out loud. I was too shock for words. I felt a hammer slamming down hard in my heart. Every night , we will say "I love you" to each other before he sleeps, but never has he said " I don't love you" by himself. He must be feeling very upset at that moment to be able to say that. I felt really upset too although ironically I felt happy that he was able to express his feelings.
That day he was half naked and refused to eat until five. I gave him milk in his bottle and left him alone. Minutes later, he came out of his room, and threw up the milk. Then I realised that his refusal to wear a shirt could be due to his illness. ( or could it be starving for too long?). I felt really sorry for what I have done in the morning. That night, when I told him I love him, he told me sickily and wearily that he loves me too. There was a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes.
My son is autistic.

Do you love cakes?

Are you a stay-at-home mum , spending only all your life with your kids? It's a fulfilling but won't make you rich job. Mothers have to find time to destress, get away from kids and do something they like, apart from taking care of their family. Otherwise , there will be an increase number of insane mums!

Baking's my first love because I love art and craft and eating cakes. So the best combination of both is baking beautiful , delicious cakes!

It's the year of tiger and here's a tiger cupcake to wish everyone a happy new year.